hi my name is Colleen and I am new to this site, and don't know exactly how to do this so sorry if it's not right. 'Y son just turned 18 and even as a little boy had conversations with himself, he would talk, but also answer his own questions. Over the years I have taken him to more doctors then a care to admit, but he was my first child and wasn't sure at first if this was normal. As years have gone on he has gotten worse, he only has a handful of friends and their all older then him, but not one friend in his high school which it's his last year. As a parent I worry and wonder what I did wrong he like I said has been to so many doctors they have gave him diagnosis like autism, aspagers which I know is in that family. One doctor said he had bipolar so many diagnosis I don't know where to go from here. We have tried every medication you can think of but he hates them because he no longer talked and just walked around like a zombie so he begged to go off bc he felt dead on it. Now he's 18 and can't force him to see or take any medications, but as a mother I worry sick about his future. He does have learning disabilities so he does struggle in school to keep up his grades, I am a single mom that lives with my mom until last year when she passed suddenly she had a massive stroke and died 4 days later and I feel my son has not been the same and talking to himself picked up a lot she was like his second mother who helped raise him while I worked. I'm sorry so long I'm just looking for anyone advice and to let people with younger children having same issues maybe to help their children before they get old enough to refuse help like mine. I'm sorry so long I am a desperate mother who worries about my child's future and would love input on any ideas I don't take any offense I take everything as a learning experience so don't hold back what you think. Thank you so much if you read through this and probably left out key things and if I did feel free to ask. Thank you and any suggestions would be so appreciated.