Last week was March break for our kids. difficult child had a doctors appointment on Monday and he agreed to go - so after I tracked him down via a friend (he overslept because he'd been up all night, wasn't answering his phone and hadn't given me his friends address) I picked him up and took him to the appointment. The doctor tried to talk to him about his life choices and how some of the choices he is making right now can affect his entire future but difficult child wasn't about to listen to any of that. Since he is more or less stable on his antidepressants (although difficult child admits to not taking them every day - sometimes every other day, sometimes only 2 x a week) the doctor said it might be time to introduce medications for his ADHD. I was a little surprised but thought "Well, maybe this will help difficult child organize himself, remember things better and focus on schoolwork..... if he chooses to." The doctor made it clear that he was not about to prescribe Concerta unless I was willing to give it to difficult child on a daily basis or get the woman difficult child is living with to dole it out. I've never met this woman who I will call C, she lives in an apartment building and I have no way of contacting her, difficult child will not give me her phone number and she has apparently never felt the need to get in touch with me about my child that is living on her couch. I'm not about to purchase a prescription that can be sold as a street drug, provide my drivers license and sign for it at the drug store and then hand it over to a complete stranger or my difficult child. That would be stupidity. So, I told difficult child that I would be willing to drive to his school every morning and meet him at 9am (totally inconvenient for me but I would do it if it helped him) to give him his medication. difficult child refused that and informed me that I should give him the pills and he would be responsible for taking them himself. Ha! No way. So, we are at a standstill and I guess difficult child will not find out if this medication can help him because he won't be getting it. In the meantime I got a call from a Child Psychiatric clinic at our hospital about an intake appointment for difficult child. I've called them back and left a message but I'm wondering if this is a complete waste of time. difficult child probably won't even go to the clinic. I'm so frustrated with his lack of personal care and inability or unwillingness to do anything positive for himself. I'm pretty sure one of his friends parents is buying him cigarettes and difficult child is selling them at school. It is illegal to smoke under age 18 here and they are supposed to ID anyone that looks under the age of 25 when buying cigarettes. difficult child says he has found a store that will sell him cigarettes because he looks old enough. I'm pretty sure it's his friend J's mom that's buying them. Why not, she buys their alcohol for them too. He gave his friend J $10 (which is how much a pack of cigarettes cost) when I picked him up for the doctors appointment.. I'm thinking it was either for cigarettes or alcohol. Ugh. And he had at least another $40 on him. I offered to buy difficult child the book he needs to read for his English class to get caught up but he didn't want me to do that - wanted to get it for himself. That tells me that he has no intention of getting caught up. When I asked him about his March Break plans he certainly didn't include any time to get caught up in either math or english. Sigh. He will fail these 2 classes for sure. Looks like he may get 3 credits in total for this school year. I never hear from him. He has made zero effort to get in touch with me for at least 2 months. It's always me contacting him. On a positive note he insisted on paying for his own lunch after the doctors appointment and asked about his sister (who he has spoken to once in the last 6 months). I gave him her cell phone number and he texted her that day but has made no effort since then to contact her and i doubt he will. As for me, I had the 48 hour holter monitor test done for my heart palpitations last weekend. They said 5 - 7 business days for results so I guess I will find out the results some time next week. Still waiting for this to get easier or something.