Tuesday, difficult child went from 30 mg to 20 mg. Yesterday afternoon, he felt weird (dizzy) and was afraid he had brain cancer. He had a small panic attack after school and felt afraid all night. I have a nasty head cold and difficult child is nervous about it. My coughing scares him. I just reassure him that everyone gets sick (me too) and I just have to live through it. He went to bed way early and when I asked what the sound was from his room, he said he was singing "I want to go to heaven but I don't want to go now." Makes me giggle now but my heart hurt for him last night. He was so scared of how he felt and of course that sets the vicious cycle - feel scared, be scared, feel more scared, ect. ect. ect. When he awoke this morning, he felt much better. Had a nightmare of someone trying to kill him but wasn't afraid of it when he woke up. It was promising to me that he did feel so good. If he had still felt terrible, I think I would have just put him back to 30 mg. I gave him his medications at 8:00 and talked to the teacher about the possible need for stress releasing activities. I told difficult child that before he called me, he needs to write down how he is feeling. I also felt that there would be no problems at school especially since I was picking him up at 1:10. I called and left a message for the doctor. The nurse said it sounds like it is too soon for withdrawals. The doctor is gone until Monday but may stop in to check messages. difficult child had a great morning - no problems. Then the drive up North. OMG - he melted. A few days ago, the teacher took his calculator away because he had left it out. He needs to "buy it back" with the math project funds he is earning. He is furious. States he is going to go buy a new one and use that. Or he will go into the classroom on Sunday and just take it back. I told him those were not acceptable solutions that he needs to either 1. Just pay the price or 2. Go talk to the teacher who by the way may still make you pay. He needs to discuss with the teacher about what happened. I am slowly but surely learning that I don't get the entire story from difficult child - only what he wants me to act on. At the therapist, difficult child asked me not to report that incident. I told him it was important for therapist to know about it even if he is now o.k. with what he has to do. therapist reminded difficult child to get plenty of sleep and exercise. That will help as he comes off the Flouxetine. We went to trumpet as we came into town and then home. difficult child played outside awhile then came in to do homework. So, besides the meltdown in the van which he worked out of well, he has done very well today and no more complaints about feeling weird. YEAH!