Took difficult child to doctor, positive strep, got medications, feeling better. Til he had to go to school this morning. He is fighting school SO hard. Finally compromised...we were already going to be late (I didn't expect him to feel better and be fever free this morning, so I didn't get out of bed at regular time...) so I suggested he could watch a cartoon he likes while I get ready. That calmed him down (after a 25 minute session of screaming about hating school prior to this). When it came time to leave, all was well. Got to school and he saw the tulips were starting to bloom in front. He loves flowers and he loves the head teacher at school, so he ran inside, excited to tell her. Of course, we were late, so class had already started and I reminded him not to interrupt. He waited til she wasn't speaking, but it still wasn't a good time to tell her flowers were blooming outside, but he tried anyway, and she told him she would talk to him later. He was heart broken. He tried to sit next to a boy he likes and the boy told him no, so he sat by himself on the other side of the room, nearly in tears. I signed him in and was leaving when he came running out the door, tears flowing. He didn't ask to go home, he didn't ask me to stay, he just cried. We talked a bit and he doesn't understand why his teacher didn't listen to him. To him, he was being appropriate, he waited til she wasn't speaking, etc. When he calmed again, I asked him if he was ready to go back and he said he had to get the tears away, it makes his teacher sad to see the tears, so he didn't want to go back in with tears in his eyes. I told him it was ok, his teacher would help him, but he was adamant he couldn't cry in front of her. I so don't know what to do. On one hand, he's been crazy lately. On the other, he's aware he's an outcast, he's "bad", and he seems to want to do the right thing SO bad, but just doesn't get it, can't get it, or won't get it... There's some argument among the powers that be which it is. But we gotta get on top of this not wanting to go to school thing. I just don't have any idea how.