difficult child has been really difficult the last couple of days. I see certain behaviors and when I ask her about them she just says "I don't know why". I really wanted to show her some info about bipolar, thinking maybe a little light bulb would go off and she would think... "ahh... maybe that is why I do such and such" But no luck. I have told her that I don't know if she is bipolar or not... but some of her symptoms led the ARNP in that direction.
difficult child thinks that her meltdowns, outbursts, irritability,anger, rage, irrational thought patterns... and just plain meanness is all just being a 13 year old girl. At least that is what she tells me. Maybe she is trying to convince herself... but I don't hear the other moms talking about behavior on this level. I thought that maybe if she would consider that possibly her symptoms might be bipolar, she wouldn't be so hard on herself. After her outbursts, she does seem to show some remorse. But lately, even that is getting rarer. Tonight she told me that "You never raised a girl before, so how do you know how they act?" Well, I know this isn't in the normal range. She has made us promise to wake her up at 6am each morning this week so she can exercise. She thinks she is fat. Her size zero skinny jeans are too tight. But each morning, she stays in bed until 7:25 and then rushes off to school.
Today, the school called and said that she said she had thrown up in the bathroom. Of course, no one saw this. So husband picked her up and brought her home. There was about 2 hours of school left. Our rule is that if you miss school because of sickness, then you don't get to go out and play for the rest of the day. She was furious when 5pm rolled around and she wanted to ride her bike, go for a walk, etc. Kept saying how stupid I was because it was a stupid rule and she didn't feel sick any longer so why couldn't she run around the neighborhood??? Tried to explain about life lessons - when you call in sick from a job, you had better not be seen having a good time out and about. Still stupid comparison...
She sees the new therapist in two weeks. I am hoping we will make some headway with the new person. And tomorrow, husband and I see our new therapist. I need help to try to keep having compassion for her. Her anger at me is starting to wear me down and I just can't hardly tolerate her and her attitude. Hope I learn how to cope better. KSM
difficult child thinks that her meltdowns, outbursts, irritability,anger, rage, irrational thought patterns... and just plain meanness is all just being a 13 year old girl. At least that is what she tells me. Maybe she is trying to convince herself... but I don't hear the other moms talking about behavior on this level. I thought that maybe if she would consider that possibly her symptoms might be bipolar, she wouldn't be so hard on herself. After her outbursts, she does seem to show some remorse. But lately, even that is getting rarer. Tonight she told me that "You never raised a girl before, so how do you know how they act?" Well, I know this isn't in the normal range. She has made us promise to wake her up at 6am each morning this week so she can exercise. She thinks she is fat. Her size zero skinny jeans are too tight. But each morning, she stays in bed until 7:25 and then rushes off to school.
Today, the school called and said that she said she had thrown up in the bathroom. Of course, no one saw this. So husband picked her up and brought her home. There was about 2 hours of school left. Our rule is that if you miss school because of sickness, then you don't get to go out and play for the rest of the day. She was furious when 5pm rolled around and she wanted to ride her bike, go for a walk, etc. Kept saying how stupid I was because it was a stupid rule and she didn't feel sick any longer so why couldn't she run around the neighborhood??? Tried to explain about life lessons - when you call in sick from a job, you had better not be seen having a good time out and about. Still stupid comparison...
She sees the new therapist in two weeks. I am hoping we will make some headway with the new person. And tomorrow, husband and I see our new therapist. I need help to try to keep having compassion for her. Her anger at me is starting to wear me down and I just can't hardly tolerate her and her attitude. Hope I learn how to cope better. KSM