I'm feeling like dam*ed if I do, dam*ed if I don't.... Neuro has been telling me for months to give Vyvanse a try with difficult child. I took her off of stims because I felt they were causing her to be more aggressive & mean......even though she was on them for quite a long time with other positive results. She was not on any this past school year & things did not go well at all (including the new placement in the medically handicapped unit starting next year). This past school year has been rough all around for everyone.....feels like one big spinning carnival ride, ya know!? Every day from the time she wakes up until she finally goes to sleep.......non-stop "issues" along with non-stop motion & mouth running. School had hard time with her, but much easier because of it being that "controlled" environment, following her peers. I will mention...the honeymoon period didn't last as long as they had hoped for though. So, school was over Thursday. The 3 days 24/7 with her was unbelievable! I mentioned in another post that husband has been working 7 days a week....so no relief there along with no other authoritive figure around most of the hours but me. I lost it! Couldn't take it anymore & ended up hiding in the garage in the middle of the night crying in my beer & a bag of Frito's! Well, I decided last night after talking with husband about it too......let's give the Vyvanse a try & see what happens. She is home all this week & hopefully will start special needs camp next week. I am still babysitting, but just part time now. Babysitting was something I wanted to get away from because things just run a little smoother when no other kids are around difficult child. But, after finding out difficult child has a chance at this camp (meaning she's got a spot....I'm not getting my hopes up they will KEEP her)....I took on my part timers for the summer. Anyway, to this morning. I started the Vyvanse & chose to skip the Clonidine. The kids showed up, difficult child was calm & nice. She even SAT DOWN & watched a movie! What???? Well, I consider it her watching it....she was up & down some, but actually SAT & watched for longer than 30 seconds! She never watches TV unless she's has one eye closed & about ready to go to sleep. She was actually somewhat quiet. All of a sudden (exactly 5 hours after medication) she slapped one of the kids, ran the bike into her & slapped her again! I was not standing there to see or hear what might have set difficult child off. It could have been a simple word or possibly just that the girl didn't want to do exactly what difficult child wanted. I don't know. But, I did see the end & watched difficult child run into her & slap her. I won't go into details about the time out, she got one though. After the time out.....she ended up playing something with a different kid & played nicely. Kids are gone now, easy child is with friends & difficult child is playing babies quietly. OMG.....what do I do???? I know that the violence she experienced in the past was the reason for me stopping the stims & she wasn't as violent. BUT, my gosh....it sure works to calm her butt down & stay focused on something for longer than a second. Do I continue this for a week & see what happens? She will be around kids for 2 more days here at home. I ended up giving her Clonidine shortly after the incident too. Neuro suggested not disc it.....but, use as needed. Just want the child to be able to function around other children & not be evil! I can't help but to think maybe she needed a stimulant during school & possibly would not have gone backwards. Just don't know what to do!?!? Oh, I forgot (she just walked by doing this)...she started making this noise like she's thirsty or has peanut butter stuck on the roof of her mouth. It's non-stop. Weird. Thanks for any advice & thanks for listening!