I am a 51 year old mother of two children... one, a 19 year old boy, and the other an almost 16 year old girl. My 19 year old is pushing me to my wits end. I truly don't know what to do with him anymore. He graduated from high school last summer, and spent the summer doing absolutely nothing. He had planned to join the service, but changed his mind when he got a girlfriend who he didn't want to leave. She is 16. Still in hich school. Her parents are very strict and won't let them see each other much. He spends all his time sitting around in his room waiting until the next time he can see her. We finally just FORCED him to register for community college, but I don't think he ever studies, and figure he is well on his way to flunking out. He fights with his sister and with us all the time... is disrespectful, and generally treats the house like a boarding house... comes and goes as he pleases... I want to throw him out... and i feel awful about it... but i spend all my time with him arguing, and he just defies me at every turn. He is supposed to be taking medication for anxiety, and when he does, he is a bit easier to take, but he won't take it lately, and is just an ass most of the time. It makes me so sad to remember the sweet little boy he used to be. Sigh. He does have a job, and does not drink, smoke or take any kind of drugs that I am aware of... I know he could be hiding it... but I really don't think he is.. so I feel like I should be grateful for that... how do you get past the guilt of not LIKING your own child?