difficult child called at 3am. Please come pick me up. Said he was suicidal. Not taking drugs but drinking constantly. Been around people doing heroin, etc. Turns out...ppl had left him alcohol outside the whole time he was here in Dec. He hid it inside the suspended ceiling in the basement. More sad stories like this... He wants rehab. Fairly agreeable as to terms but still trying to get some control. Has agreed to see my Al-anon sponsor today if she can meet with us. Her son died three years ago. She's a tireless servant. Hoping she may know of best placement. difficult child talks about having no future one minute and then maybe a chance for one the next. This is n improvement. Wondering how much of this is driven by court tonight. Going to try to nap. Much harder with him here.