difficult child left this morning for his cross country trip to my father. I wish I could say that I feel magically relieved and all of my stress is gone but sadly I can't. I'm SO anxious and worried right now. I want everything to work out but I have a million "what if's" running through my head. I know I need to let go now and take back control of my own life but it's so hard after I've been in nonstop warrior mode for the better part of the last year.