dstc_99
Well-Known Member
How do you all deal with the constant stress?
Right now I am clinically depressed and fighting with myself constantly. I am so tired all the time and have no energy for anything. I tend to lock myself away in my bedroom and pray for absolute silence. I know this is hurting my youngest child but I cant seem to make myself stop. It is affecting my job and every time I miss or come in late I just feel even worse about myself. I dont know if people are looking at me differently or if I am just feeling like it because I am berating my own bad behavior.
Long story short I just dont know how people do this for years and handle it. It is to the point where I want to take a leave of absence or quit my job just so I can get better. I cant handle the feelings of failure! And I feel like I cant handle another body blow right now. It is one thing to feel like a bad parent when you have a child with issues. It is another to feel like you are shutting down and possibly making things worse.
Right now I am clinically depressed and fighting with myself constantly. I am so tired all the time and have no energy for anything. I tend to lock myself away in my bedroom and pray for absolute silence. I know this is hurting my youngest child but I cant seem to make myself stop. It is affecting my job and every time I miss or come in late I just feel even worse about myself. I dont know if people are looking at me differently or if I am just feeling like it because I am berating my own bad behavior.
Long story short I just dont know how people do this for years and handle it. It is to the point where I want to take a leave of absence or quit my job just so I can get better. I cant handle the feelings of failure! And I feel like I cant handle another body blow right now. It is one thing to feel like a bad parent when you have a child with issues. It is another to feel like you are shutting down and possibly making things worse.