I just cannot get out of my head the contempt, malice, and hatred I have for ex. You would have thought that this had dissipated by now, (we have been divorced 12 years), but it has gotten worse since I have pressed charges against him for the 10K he owes. I hate how he lies to my son and makes my son crazy; I hate how my son, in turn, takes it out on me; I hate how ex has never lifted a finger to help me with difficult child; and I hate how alone I am because I have sacrificed everything to help difficult child, and ex has done nothing. I literally have physically hateful acts constantly running through my mind towards ex - and yes I have been in therapy for 5 years, and I am on medications. Not that I would ever act on any of these thoughts, but I do need mental relief!!!! Any advice?