Hi. I found this board searching for information on adult autism. I am a 33 year old woman, who still lives at home. I've been diagnosed with level 2 autism. I also have Crohns Disease, depression, and migraine headaches. I recovered from a severe case of anorexia on my own that developed after a sexual assault. That was six years ago, I think. I still have rigidities around food due to autism that I work on with an Autism Spectrum Disorders (ASD) specialist. I have never used drugs or alcohol in any capacity, although I was exposed to the aforesaid growing up. I've never been driven to even try drugs or alcohol, particularly after seeing how it affected others close to me. I can't say that I've ever hung out with destructive individuals because I keep to myself a lot and I'm highly risk averse. I'm not violent, I love animals, nature, and I have a very good relationship with my mom... I'm basically your average nerd, albeit an "old" nerd. My problem is this: I'm concerned I'm far too dependent. Most adults my age have... relationships, houses, functional lives... they're able to support their parents when they need help, in ways I cannot support mine. I feel so guilty. I would like to hear from others in my mother's position — is there anything I can do to better support her? I wash clothes, I run some of the errands, I help her grade papers. I've tutored and babysat to bring in extra money, in addition to my SSI... It's difficult to be productive with my autism and crohn's (I take medication for the Crohn's, but I'm always in pain or tired) but I do try. I just feel ashamed of myself that I'm not doing...more. I stay busy in positive ways. I study three languages (Chinese, Russian, French), play violin and piano at around high intermediate level... My real passion, though, is math and physics, which I've studied to around grad level (although I have no degree). If I'm not dealing with medical issues, I spend a great chunk of my day focused on my interests, writing proofs, and reading foreign texts. I've finally managed to get out of the house to meet others with similar interests, and I took on a volunteer job. I'm auditing some math/physics courses at a local UC.... I don't know where I'm going with this. Just looking for outside opinions on how I can be the best person/daughter I can be, from the perspective of moms who might have kids in my position. My mom says she loves me and I'm not a problem and I help her quite a bit... but I just... worry endlessly.