I am just so tired, weary, and emotionally bankrupt, I feel like I need to just disappear into a large hole. My son, is just beyond messed up right not, with not an ounce of motivation to go forward with his life. How many times can you tweek the medications, before you give up? Then, he manages to take every ounce of his distress and angst out on me - as if I am the garbage receptacle for all of his problems. I have already been through a dad who was verbally, physically, and sexually abusive, and 2 husbands that were verbally and physically abusive, and now I have a son that manages to release his venom every chance he can get in a verbally abusive way. I cannot do this anymore - I don't want to do this anymore. I want to be free............somehow, someway. I know I should take me time, but I can't. There is not anyone who is in our life that is bonded to my son. What am I supposed to do? Just leave for a couple of days without him? Have a date with myself? Thanks for listening, I am just at the end of my rope, without much hope in sight. I have no one that has answers for our dilemmas, and I just needed to vent.