I just wanted to let everyone know that I love my difficult child. It has been a hard day for me and him. I did see him today - he went to a doctor appointment,. only to get pills - the doctor knew it and didnt prescribe him any - he didnt charge him either - mygfg was not happy and he took it out on me - I probably said some things I shouldnt have said but I transported him their - I knew the doctor - a very good Christian man - I prayed so hard that God would intervene in that meeting - my son defies every opportunity to get help and any advice - I feel bad when I get angry at him but when he sits there and calls me names I wouldnt call my worst enemy it hurts so bad - but no matter what - I still love him. Amazing. He was my first born and I was the happiest mom on earth - the happiest - wwe had so much fun - now when we are together it is always an argument - he wants what he wants out of me - it is sad for me because I cant relate to him anymore - he doesnt want me he wants what he can get out of me. Just felt better saying I love him.