To my beautiful gifts from God You were sent to me a blessing from above to teach me how infinitely I could love. I held you tenderly to my breast and felt our hearts beat as one. You filled me up in every way and I am thankful to this day for the gift of you. Through the struggles these past years I have shed many tears been tangled up with my worst fears of what you had become. Lost in time lost in ways seems as if in a daze. Tried and tried to reach out. Weary eyed bleary eyed all cried out. Looking back..,, all my attempts in vain to get my daughters home again did not help them did not help me Desperate on bended knee I made a humble anguished plea "Dear God please help me see what all of this means" Softly, he whispered with the winds and trees You did the best with all your heart made mistakes it's true you did the best job you could do hold your head up look up look up I only loaned them for awhile. Now you must give them back to me give them their wings and set them free for in your heart of hearts you know that they must on their own path go stumble, fall, learn and see their own endless possibilities Letting go does not mean giving up you are giving in to what must be giving them back to me as our children walk their path they will learn.... "'Cause even the stars they burn Some even fall to the earth We've got a lot to learn God knows we're worth it No, I won't give up I won't give up on us Even if the skies get rough I'm giving you all my love I'm still looking up And when you're needing your space To do some navigating I'll be here patiently waiting To see what you find" I'll continue on to pray that my girls find a brighter day I will look up to say Thank you Lord for all you have given me With deep faith I set them free for they are yours and as they go their way please look after my girls And I will learn to live to breath to find my endless possibilities and find my own peace within I will look up I will look up and I won't give up.