I won't do it, but if wasn't scared about where I'd end up I might. I can't wait to get the Prozac tomorrow. I hate my husband and I even hate my difficult child right now. I feel like getting married to husband was the worst mistake I ever made. I should have run screaming the other way the one time he showed his true colors while we were dating - he coerced me into giving him 0ral s3x - I was crying the whole time and I don't think he even knew. Or if he did, he didn't care. I can't survive financially without him - because of difficult child I can't work a full time job and am barely holding on to my part time one. He's such a jerk!!! (both of them) They had a screaming match both last night and tonight, both times ended up with husband screaming at me. difficult child has already had his screaming fit at me today - he hates me, of course. I would like to know what the hell I ever did to deserve this life?! s3xually abused since age 5 or so, told my Mom many times, she did nothing. Ended up with husband and verbal/emotional abuse. If I had only divorced him when I planned to after easy child was born. Told my Dad I was going to divorce him and he got tears in his eyes. I couldn't do it. How stupid - if I had only known how much more pain was in store for me (and Dad as he watches my life). Would have been a lot less painful to divorce then, difficult child would never have been born and maybe I would have gotten a good guy. I wouldn't re-marry now on a dare - might get another one like or worse than husband. I'm actually jealous of my boss -her husband just died and she got life insurance money out of it. Wish it was me.