Californiablonde
Well-Known Member
This anxiety has been hell for the last three years and everything my last three different doctors have given me either doesn't help at all whatsoever, or it makes my anxiety even worse. Take this new medication I'm on called Brintellix. Six weeks of this medication and I am going to be begging my doctor this Friday (When I see him next) to take me off of this damn stuff. I used to get panic attacks first thing upon waking in the morning, then a bath and a little prayer and meditation would cure it. The panic would settle in again somewhere after lunch time, so I would drink a cup of decaf tea to help calm my nerves. Well now I am in 24/7 constant panic mode no matter what I try.
For example, I am now sitting at my desk at work feeling like I'm about to jump out of my skin. My heart is racing, I have that horrible butterfly feeling in my stomach, and it feels like there's a rush of adrenaline throughout my entire body. I just want to scream and run like hell, but here I sit, trying to appear calm, hoping nobody will notice. I am so sick of this. I'd rather be medication free than feel like this.
I have officially tried all of the SSRI's and they have all officially failed me. Unless there's something you all can think of that I haven't tried yet, but I doubt it. So far I have been on Prozac, Zoloft, Vybrid, Wellbutrin, Luvox, Remeron, Celexa, Lexapro, Effexor, and Buspar. I have also tried every single mood stabilizer, and while they work great for the bipolar, not so much for the anxiety. I have tried every single antipsychotic out there, which they say can also help with anxiety issues, but so far none of them do crap.
I have tried Cognintive behavior therapy and my therapist was clueless as to how to help me. Maybe I just haven't found the right therapist yet. Who knows? All I know is that right now I'm one big anxious ball of mess and I can't figure out why. My kids are actually improving in school and my home life is decent, so I really can't for the life of me figure out what my triggers are. In the meantime I see psychiatrist again on Friday and beg for his help, although right now I feel like he can't even help me. I need lots of good wishes and luck sent my way!
For example, I am now sitting at my desk at work feeling like I'm about to jump out of my skin. My heart is racing, I have that horrible butterfly feeling in my stomach, and it feels like there's a rush of adrenaline throughout my entire body. I just want to scream and run like hell, but here I sit, trying to appear calm, hoping nobody will notice. I am so sick of this. I'd rather be medication free than feel like this.
I have officially tried all of the SSRI's and they have all officially failed me. Unless there's something you all can think of that I haven't tried yet, but I doubt it. So far I have been on Prozac, Zoloft, Vybrid, Wellbutrin, Luvox, Remeron, Celexa, Lexapro, Effexor, and Buspar. I have also tried every single mood stabilizer, and while they work great for the bipolar, not so much for the anxiety. I have tried every single antipsychotic out there, which they say can also help with anxiety issues, but so far none of them do crap.
I have tried Cognintive behavior therapy and my therapist was clueless as to how to help me. Maybe I just haven't found the right therapist yet. Who knows? All I know is that right now I'm one big anxious ball of mess and I can't figure out why. My kids are actually improving in school and my home life is decent, so I really can't for the life of me figure out what my triggers are. In the meantime I see psychiatrist again on Friday and beg for his help, although right now I feel like he can't even help me. I need lots of good wishes and luck sent my way!