difficult child 2 has been in the hospital for a week now. We've been visiting everyday. If he weren't Autistic I would probably allow a little break, but I know he needs to see me everyday for assurance and the doctor's agreed. The drive is an hour each way. I've put every penny I have in my gas tank, the van broke down on Thursday and I wrote a check for $108 to fix it yesterday. D-ex hasn't been up once to see any of the kids (difficult child 1 was just discharged from psychiatric hospital on Tuesday). Then last night he calls while we're on our way home from the hospital and says, "wow, gas is expensive and I wanted to come see the kids at least once" HELLO????? ANYONE IN THERE????? Then he has the nerve to say, "I'm gonna come up tomorrow but it's been a long week and I need some sleep so I'm gonna sleep in really late first" OMG!!!!! LIke I'm not tired....like the other 2 boys aren't tired?? SELFISH, SELFISH, SELFISH!! I hung up and cried all the way home.....this is after I cried at the hospital because difficult child 2 was really out of it due to new medications and I went thru some serious mommy guilt wondering if I am doing the right thing. He said to me "something is wrong with me"......and the tears started rolling immediately. But nurses were attentive and called the doctor to talk to me, they're gonna change the regimen so that won't happen again. I try really hard not to cry in front of the other boys but I just couldn't hold back last night. They were so sweet making sure I was ok.....I told them sometimes Mommies just need a good cry. And my sister who lives locally has not only offered no help, but instead offered to call CPS on me because she doesn't think I'm a good parent!!!! Gee, thanks! I just need a good hug!