I'm so tired. Tired from having to get up at 3 am and deal with difficult child 1's intentional low blood sugars, so she wont wake up dead in bed. Most of the time, I struggle to fall back to sleep, if I fall back to sleep at all. Mostly, I am just tired of dealing with difficult child 1 and difficult child 2' koi. They are psychopaths. Never in my 49 years have I ever met thought processes as disturbed as theirs. They completely lack any guilt, remorse, shame, or empathy. They can't connect their behavior to consequences, and they blame everyone else for the things they choose to do. If the person gets in trouble for what they did, so be it. It wasn't them, so who cares? I wish they would wear their deviances and disturbed thoughts on the outside, but they don't. If you met them, you would think they were the sweetest girls. :-/ They are so good at cultivating an image of goodness. It's all one big con. What has me upset tonight, I found a note difficult child 2 wrote to difficult child 1. When school starts, they are making plans to go the school counselor to report me as abusive. Again. I'm so sick of this koi. Everyday of their life with us has been like this. Everyday. The lying, maligning, stealing, the noncompliance, trying to get me arrested, my kids taken away from me. And on and on. I'm so tired of dealing with them, policing them, protecting others... I'm so tired of it all.