It'll be a week tomorrow that husband has been on the Paxil. He says he doesn't really feel any different other than dry mouth, etc. He is spending more time interacting with me, and less on the computer. I know full well that there aren't really any therapeutic affects this early on, but that it can make people feel a little 'high'. He does seem to get some genuine laughs out of the dog's silly antics. We had talked at the therapists' on Wednesday about how it helps to try to engage yourself in enjoyable activities, even if you think you don't enjoy them anymore, as the endorphans will eventually start to flow whether you think they will or not. Unless there is something really seriously wrong. He has moved his pillows closer to me in bed so that we are snuggling more. He really is trying. I guess I hadn't realized how shell-shocked I was. He was so adept at hiding his misery, and now I question his behavioral changes when he admits he feels no changes. But would he admit he felt changes if he did? He found it almost impossible to admit he was unhappy. Would he pretend he felt better if he didn't? Gads, I am so tired of trying to get into his head. I want the changes he is showing to be real, but I want even less for him to be disguising reality and unable to ask for help or a change in medications if he realizes that this isn't working. Anyway, off I go to work. I have promised myself that I am giving the boss my notice that I am quitting today unless her appointment calendar is full again... I think she is avoiding me because she knows I want to quit. UGH!