didn't know what else to title it. this isn't about my drama junk with-difficult child or easy child or lwt's with my dad or my pain in the butt husband. i've been really struggling lately physically. i have for years on and off. doctor's if you remember had it pegged as lyme, than i had lung disease lol. jerks. than it was rheumatoid arthritis. well all negative on those. we are fighting to get isurance for me husband and easy child yet he makes too much yet too little for us to pay for it. confusing. i go to bed at night and wow the nerves i guess in my legs start up on certain nights, last night was bad. they move with-o me moving them if that makes sense. like shooting pains. than the swelling and joint pain in my kness my arms neck. past few years i forget where i am. sounds absurd or anxiety related. yet i'm totally calm usually when it occurs. yet i'll be driving like yesterday to difficult child's hospital appointment. and get off highway and have no clue where i am, or where i'm going. so i leave my appointment. book on front of truck so i can always glance at it or i'll ask difficult child oh you looking forward to today than she'll usually say i hate the hospital than i'll remember where i'm giong. ill drive thru town and itl'l happen to me. suddenly nope total loss of where i am. than the fun vision thing. out of nowhere it goes blurry. i tried to ride it out, i always stay calm. it does subside. the shooting headaches, or the crackling sounds in my head when i move it a certain way. or lately the stuttering, i try to say what's in my head and it comes out all jumbled up. today i woke up same, feeling like truck ran over me, etc. took hot shower it only gets worse. so, i'm clueless doctor wants me to head to nuerologist for an mri. and weird thing is i'll have an awesome few mos.where i'm feeling great than outta blue it'll hit for a period of time than it goes away again. i'd have to say the memory loss for me is the worst because i really don't know where the heck i am. any of you guys ever have this junk? it's so annoying. started about 5 years ago, and it just seems to be getting worse. husband thinks im nuts wheni repeat a story like 5 times over in one week and says when u tell it your so excited because you to you its the first time and brand new.