Well, it was bound to happen! I have finally had a meltdown, crying off and on for 2 days now (time for psychiatrist for Mommy?)! difficult child was a mess last night, got off the bus from school and nearly got pancaked by the neighbor backing out of his drive because difficult child wasn't looking (big surprise), he put the second hole in a wall in my NEW house and we've only been here 2 months then of course lied about it, destroyed brothers stuffed dog by chewing it's ear off, and was just generally a hyper mess. Two weeks ago it was running a crayon down the entire length of my van several times. Last week it was digging a hole in his bedroom wall. We can't keep him in bed at night, he only sleeps about 6-7 hours. He sneaks around the house getting into food, he lit candles a couple months ago and tried to light a oil lamp, climbs on counters, plays out in the garage, etc. husband says we can't lock him in his room at night (what if there is a fire) and I can't find a door alarm to save my life that isn't 900db or above. I don't want to wake the whole neighborhood every time he gets out of his room. I am seriously scared that he is going to get himself or us hurt or dead. My 2 easy child's are frustrated, 1 has to share a room with him. My mother in law thinks I am too hard on him and I should let up but even she won't keep him overnight anymore because he won't stay in bed and sneaks around HER house. His teacher says he's hanging around with the "bad kids" in school and imitating their bad behaviors. I feel guilty when I am ecstatic when the bus comes in the morning and dread it coming back in the afternoon (what happened/is going to happen today). I actually told him last night that he was sitting on his bed grounded indefinitely. I dread going to the store or anywhere else because he may have a meltdown about something. I feel guilty because I gladly go to the store after husband gets home from work and leave difficult child with him and take the easy child's with me. I feel like the worst mother in the world and maybe it's me that's causing this behavior or making it worse. I know it isn't but I'm not feeling rational at the moment. Anyway, thanks for letting me vent, I feel a little better (eyes just watering instead of dripping now).