I stumbled upon this website and just joined. I sit here crying and praying and struggling to cope with the ongoing situation we have. My 18 year old son just left in the middle of the night when we were all asleep last summer. We had noticed that he stopped caring about his life in the Spring before he graduated high school. The high school gave up on him yet we found out he was skipping school and drinking only after he left us. We have seen him on and off for the last year. He would just show up out of the blue and wanted to sleep here for a night or two. We let him do this for a while because we wanted to have some communication with him but he lost his job this past Winter and even though he has no money, no wallet, no id, no place to live - refuses to help himself. We do not give him money and we finally told him if he wants to sleep at our home, he needs to get up in the morning and leave when we all do. He was at the door and this was our condition but he got real angry, told us off and then left with a friend. His girlfriend texts once and a while saying she is worried about him but I can't handle this emotionally. It's almost better if I don't know what is going on. I'm his mother but I am so afraid when I get a text from her that I break down. I can't hear it. Is this normal? I am so emotionally fragile right now over this. I don't know if I am going to get a phone call in the middle of the night saying he's dead. Thank you to all of you for being here. I feel so alone. My son's life right now is not a reflection of the good home he came from. It is surreal.