rejectedmom
New Member
Shawana, I am so sorry you are going through this. I do think that you should see a therapist for yourself without husband to sort through all your emotions. I also agree wiith all who have said that you should take your time and not make any rash decisions.
From what you posted it seems that your husband didn't come right out and say that it was your weight that is the cause of the lack of intimacy. I too have gained alot of weight in the last few years and am very self conscious over it. The reason for my weight gain were mostly emotional, medical and stress related and those issues did affect the way I acted and the way I saw myself in general. I became a victim in my own eyes rather than the strong self assured woman I had been. Pretty soon I no longer even knew who I was. One of my dearest friends came to me one day and told me that she 'Missed the real Kathy" and that she hoped that I would return.
I got so mad at her! I almost ended a 20 year friendship over it. How could she be so calloused as to expect me not to be a changed person and unhappy with all I had been through? Well I steped back a bit and with the help and support of a therapist and this board and others...I realized that I had given up the joyous part of me and I had become very hard to be around.
My point is that sometimes we focus on one thing as being the whole truth of a problem when in reality it is isn't. I gained my weight mostly because I was unhappy and stressed. I then became unhappy about the way I looked and angry with myself for letting it happen. Eventually all people saw of me was my anger, hurt and frustration. I dragged them down. When my friend approached me I blamed her for being un-sympatetic and calloused. But when I thought about it I realized that was not the case. I had changed and I had become a very different personality. Both my friend and I had to make adjustments if we were to remain friends. We worked through it and I am so glad for that.
Sometimes things are not what we think them to be. You have a husband who wants to work through this. Right now you are raw you need to give yourself the time to step back and figure things out. My advice is to be totally honest with yourself. Start by taking time for you, love you, pamper you, do things that you enjoy. Find yourself and you will find the answer.
Your husband needs to do the same thing. (((((HUGS)))) -RM
From what you posted it seems that your husband didn't come right out and say that it was your weight that is the cause of the lack of intimacy. I too have gained alot of weight in the last few years and am very self conscious over it. The reason for my weight gain were mostly emotional, medical and stress related and those issues did affect the way I acted and the way I saw myself in general. I became a victim in my own eyes rather than the strong self assured woman I had been. Pretty soon I no longer even knew who I was. One of my dearest friends came to me one day and told me that she 'Missed the real Kathy" and that she hoped that I would return.
I got so mad at her! I almost ended a 20 year friendship over it. How could she be so calloused as to expect me not to be a changed person and unhappy with all I had been through? Well I steped back a bit and with the help and support of a therapist and this board and others...I realized that I had given up the joyous part of me and I had become very hard to be around.
My point is that sometimes we focus on one thing as being the whole truth of a problem when in reality it is isn't. I gained my weight mostly because I was unhappy and stressed. I then became unhappy about the way I looked and angry with myself for letting it happen. Eventually all people saw of me was my anger, hurt and frustration. I dragged them down. When my friend approached me I blamed her for being un-sympatetic and calloused. But when I thought about it I realized that was not the case. I had changed and I had become a very different personality. Both my friend and I had to make adjustments if we were to remain friends. We worked through it and I am so glad for that.
Sometimes things are not what we think them to be. You have a husband who wants to work through this. Right now you are raw you need to give yourself the time to step back and figure things out. My advice is to be totally honest with yourself. Start by taking time for you, love you, pamper you, do things that you enjoy. Find yourself and you will find the answer.
Your husband needs to do the same thing. (((((HUGS)))) -RM