It frayed to the point that I can't even find the end of my rope any more. Synopsis. I've always known something was up with biggest... always, but had my feelings squashed by spouse who knows ALL THE THINGS. Biggest has Pervasive Developmental Disorder (PDD)-not otherwise specified, Hyperactivity and a laundry basket of other things on Fluoxetine and Dexadrine... taken up self harming this summer to top off the not eating when angry/upset ... yes a 50 lb 10 year old can exist! Problem with all of this, his IQ (once he stopped being bored with it) is in the 150's. Makes getting an aide in the classroom difficult. Good thing he refuses to write with his hands eh? rolls eyes. Midsized... angry ALL THE TIME... finally freaked out at the optometrist (he reads upside down without problems, right side up... not so great! dyslexia anyone?) and flopped himself back in that big ol chair and yowled "why can't anything ever be wrong with MEEEEEEE?????" Girlie... Will require years of therapy because all I ever want to and some days do say to her is ENOUGH! Figure she is on the same path as biggest a Hyperactivity disorder and on the autism scale somewhere. Refusing to medicate for now... Dr. is with me on that one. Me... I'm too tired to be depressed. Overwhelmed. Angry? absolutely. Depressed. No time or money for that! I'm trying to divorce my gay, child sex offender wasband who was taken away in handcuffs several years ago. Despite all those big black issues... not as easy as one might think. He is a bit of a narcissist and most certainly a good ol sociopath. Asking for shared custody. yeah. Not if I can help it. There are days I wonder if we're going to make it. It has been 8 weeks since school let out, no camps for the kids, lack of money and well... lack of social skills to cope with a summer camp. Which makes me soooo frustrated. Blew up more than once at people advocating that I send them all to camp to get a break. bashes head to desk Hi... I'm new here. Thanks for letting me get it out. Cause quite honestly... if I didn't soon. I was going to self destruct.