Hi! I kept coming across this forum every time I searched for advice regarding my difficult child so I figured it was time to jump in. My difficult child was diagnosed with Early Onset Bipolar Disorder less than two months before she turned 3 and it was not a diagnosis that was given easily. She has been unable to self soothe since she was a baby, became increasingly violent and slept very little since she was a year old. Her paternal side has a strong history of Bipolar and alcoholism. Maternal side is unknown, I'm adopted. She has been in-patient at our local children's hospital twice, once to diagnose and once to stabilize, and I have dragged both difficult child and easy child all the way to California from Arizona after fighting tooth and nail to get her admitted into Resnick at UCLA which was a disaster. We have tried gluten/dairy/dye free diets, omega 3 treatments and virtually anything else you can imagine to stabilize without medication with no progress. We finally have a psychiatrist who communicates well and is also open to naturopathic suggestions and we are slowly making progress. difficult child is on Depakote and Risperdal and is still having to take Melatonin nightly to go to sleep although she only sleeps 4 hours. easy child is my rock, my salvation. At almost 8 months old she is my source of comfort and difficult child's best friend, quite a heavy burden for a baby. husband is in the Army and has been deployed since January last year, still have a few months left until he's home. difficult child handles it like a champ. My goals are to get difficult child stable enough to attend preschool then kindergarten and beyond so that I can go back to school to become a Certified Nurse Midwife. We will stay in the military mostly because of the insurance for difficult child. Moving around doesn't matter, my parents are too elderly to help much and we have no other support from family or friends. Mommy is very tired.