StressedM0mma
Active Member
Hello all. I am new here, but unfortunately not new to the issues you all are going through. My husband and I are at the end of our rope with our difficult child 14. She has always dealt with anxiety,, and was on Celexa for years. We dealt with the anger outbursts as they came, and moved on. But as she has gotten older, things have gotten worse. Much worse. This June I stumbled onto the face that she was cutting. She was hiding it from everyone by doing it on her upper thighs. Went to her pediatrician., and he thought it would be best to change her medications to zoloft. Also we started with counceling. By August, her councelor felt she no longer needed to see her. I naively thought things were going well. Huge mistake.
Fast forward to the start of school. My normally straight A student is now flunking out of High School. Literally. She is refusing to do her homework. Refusing to get up and get ready for school. I wake up completely stressed out every single morning waiting to see if she is going to be compliant, or if I am going to have to jump through hoops.
It is beginning to cause problems in every aspect of our lives. My older daughter is trying to prepare apps. for college, and she is always worried what type of home life she is going to walk into. I want to sit and cry most days because my hands feel so tied. My husband is just done. And on top of everything I am terrified. I am scared I will never get my daughter back.
Sorry this doesn't make much sense. I am just sort of pouring it out here while I am waiting to see if she will be ready to leave for school on time this morning, or if it will once again be somehow twisted around to how it is not her fault that she couldn't get up, and how if I only did this... she would be ready.
Please tell me that once we see the psychiatrist that things will begin to get better. There is so much more to her story, but at this point I will have to finish later.
Fast forward to the start of school. My normally straight A student is now flunking out of High School. Literally. She is refusing to do her homework. Refusing to get up and get ready for school. I wake up completely stressed out every single morning waiting to see if she is going to be compliant, or if I am going to have to jump through hoops.
It is beginning to cause problems in every aspect of our lives. My older daughter is trying to prepare apps. for college, and she is always worried what type of home life she is going to walk into. I want to sit and cry most days because my hands feel so tied. My husband is just done. And on top of everything I am terrified. I am scared I will never get my daughter back.
Sorry this doesn't make much sense. I am just sort of pouring it out here while I am waiting to see if she will be ready to leave for school on time this morning, or if it will once again be somehow twisted around to how it is not her fault that she couldn't get up, and how if I only did this... she would be ready.
Please tell me that once we see the psychiatrist that things will begin to get better. There is so much more to her story, but at this point I will have to finish later.