We saw the psychiatrist today. difficult child wants to go back on lithium. He has been having side effects from Depakote and has also been really nasty, so he figures if he's stuck with-side effects, at least he'll be in a good mood. More or less. His hands have been trembling, so it's hard to write; he gets headaches; he has panic attacks; he's grouchy; and his heart beats so hard you can feel it through his clothing. (It's like when someone kicks the wall in another room--kaboom!--sort of percussion. The dr agreed, especially since we've pretty much exhausted the anti-psychotics and mood stabilizers (so many are chemically related, the dr doesn't want to try any more). Most of the appointment was spent watching the dr stare at his laptop and mumble. He'd look kind of happy and start to talk, and then he'd see something indicating that it wouldn't work, and he'd frown again. "difficult child, you're making things difficult," he said. difficult child chuckled. It turns out that difficult child's nose bleed last winter only lasted 5 min and supposedly wasn't that bad. Plus, it happened in Feb., when it was very dry outside. We all think it was a red herring. And the dr is not going to put difficult child at the level he was before. We'll do 150, then see what happens. All we can do is try.