I found this site by accident and thought that it might help me during my time of need so that I could help my son. I logged on during my time of need and most times I got no response. I did not log on for a long time after my child went to Residential Treatment Center (RTC) (my Choice) to help him. My step children in the meantime destroyed our friendships with most of our so called friends relieving all of our "family secrets" of course not the ones that included them and have destroyed my marriage because we no longer talk about anything I mostly defend "my children" and him mostly blaming me for the mental damage to his "not that his drug taking, abanding his children x-wife did any danmage to their emotional state of being" Even after they were grown and gone and Know that she did not even TRY to see them -I still get the blame! My biological son( who is bi-polar) got into a fight yesterday because some "big shot" thought that he would back down and make himself look so "tough" ( I know not smart) and so did difficult child. They both decided to skip last period and go up to the park to fight so we were at the store and got a call to come and get difficult child or sign a release that we did not want him to go to the hosptial. He is fine no damage (except to MY HEART) I pryaed so hard and long for him NOT to go to juvy because I honestly believe that he has bipolar that he can not control his impulsive behavior or maybe a split personalality. After all of this, by the grace of GOD they found him a foster family at the last second and even though it broke my heart to pack him up, take him there and say goodbye knowing that I will not have ANY contact with him for at least a month. I prayed hard and strong that GOD will interviene and encourage him to seek the right path and I have handed him over to GOD's will and have total faith that threw our LORD he WILL be saved. I am not trying to preach to anyone about anything. I only know that this is what I believe and what I have tried to teach my children. This Child agrees that he has total belief in GOD and this just might be the one thing that wakes him up to prove that it is true. I have cried so hard and prayed so much I have so much faith that this will be the thing that makes difficult child know and understand who loves him and how much they do and what they are willing to sacrifice for him (threw GOD) I recently told our mst therapist that now that she will not be coming by to talk to me I have recently come to realize just how alone I really am. My easy child is doing good trying to live her own life, thats hard especially with (husband) always trying to fight with her and me playing ref. MY easy child is gone, MY difficult child is gone the others dont care and I..... ..I am left ALONE.