I've had an eventful year. I'd been sick for a long time and it was getting worse fast. difficult child was spiraling down hard and fast. Then I had the heart attack (which turned out to be a good thing), followed by angioplasty and complications. Then another heart cath and more complications. Then an allergic reaction which led to steroids and an adverse reaction. Followed by more allergic reaction and more steroids. I try to go back to work and get an ear infection that goes from bad to worse, costing me a week of work (for a stupid ear infection!) and almost landed me in the hospital on IV antibiotics. My car acts up. And my kitty dies. I haven't had any substantial income for 3 months (but I've been forking out money as though I've not lost any income - car, veterinarian, etc). I'm losing my house. I feel numb. Completely empty of emotion. I'm not depressed; I'm not angry - although I have noticed that I've been more easily agitated/irritated the last few days or so. And by stupid things, too - like people that don't know how to use a turn lane. Sigh... I didn't answer the phone this weekend. I've turned off my instant messenger that used to be on all the time. I just am not interested in chit-chat. I did call a friend today and wished her happy birthday and went to her house to see the kittens and momma cat she found. The poor momma kitty had been in a pretty bad cat fight and looks like she got the worst of it. She was so thin, but her babies are nice and pudgy. She's a good momma. Cassie's death is what put me over the edge. I haven't really mourned her loss. I just keep putting it out of my mind - I don't let myself think about it. Should I be worried or is this a normal reaction to the chain of events that have consumed my life for the last 6 months? And, yes, I'm taking my AD and my progestin (the combo that finally made me "me" again).