I have 7 children, 3 of which live with me, 2 adult, 1 living with a relative, and 1 who passed away. I suffer from depression and anxiety. My 8 yr old has adhd, my 5 yr old has odd, and my 3 yr old is a typical 3 yr old. I am a stay at home mom. I recently weaned my youngest (which is messing with my hormones) and the only thing that made me happy (my horse) just died. My teenager, who lives with a relative, is highly disrespectful and likes to shove everything in my face (I was young when I had her and wasn't ready to be a single mom). For those wondering the 3 adult children are my step kids as my hubby is much older then me. Anyway I can't take it anymore! I'm falling apart and I can't see a light in any tunnel. I hate crawling out of bed and my marriage is on the rocks because he doesn't understand why i'm so distant. Every day is another round of arguments, lies, screaming, etc. My 5 yr old is the worse. Right now she is screaming and crying because I won't let her go outside to play. I made her come in because she was being mean to her sister then lied and said her brother did it. This nightmare never ends! She does have an appointment with a psychiatrist in july but i'm afraid they might have to put me in the looney bin long before that! Sorry about the long rant but i'm at my wits end.