I am so scared. I am falling apart. Everything seems wrong - is wrong. My boss at work keeps telling me all of the things I am doing incorrectly. And I just cannot take it. I know I should be able to, but I can't. I left early today, crying. I have never done that in my life. It seems possible I am having a nervous breakdown of sorts. I miss H. more than words can even describe. And I am falling apart. My dad is not doing well, and I am afraid his cancer is back. A year ago he was only given 6 months. What am I going to do? I feel like my whole life I have been in a vortex of negative energy, and anything and everything around me that is bad sticks to me. I was just feeling like I was going to get it all straight with my new career - and then H. And now my boss, and this other employee that is telling lies about me, and past due bills, and the aberrant neighbors, and difficult child not having a grip, and....and...and. I am completely defeated. And if it was not for difficult child, I would be contemplating things that are unmentionable. I just feel like giving up. I really am a good person. I am the most caring & empathic person I have every met. Perhaps that is the problem. Maybe I need to stop caring. Thanks for listening to me ramble. Believe it or not, it really helps to post my thoughts, even if they are disjointed and disconnected.