Echolette
Well-Known Member
So in the end I paid difficult child's restitution, plus a little extra fine for retail theft that they sprung on me when I got there. difficult child was released last night at 11 pm with a subway token and a dollar. And where is he now you might ask? At the same flophouse he was thrown out of this summer. And what is he doing? NOT giving me his bank card as promised,NAND not going to the resource center he committed to... 'Mom, it is a holiday, I just want to hang with my friends and see the fireworks. I'll go Thursday'
I knew he would screw me over but I didn't expect it to be so prompt.mwhat a loud slap in the face. I was hoping my clear eyed decision making going into it would protect me from the backlash of hurt and anger in my heart.. And maybe it has to some extent..but i,will say I am both,mans mortified, and humiliated in front of myself. And..mod course...a little hopeful, too, that he really will go on Thursday... But he won't.
I feel like calling him and saying...stay the heck out of my life until you can come tell me something good. But...oh yeah....he doesn't have a phone, so I can't have that satisfaction!
To further undo me, SO and I are fighting.... I didn't fill in that part of the story, but he is certainly some one's difficult child as well...often wonderfully supportive, but somewhat unstable, prone to things like waking me up at 2 am to tell me he thought we should split up...he filed bankruptcy a year ago and is trying to get his life together..right now his house is being foreclosed on jan 10) and he is moving in with me, and I committed to support him through May while he works out a new business venture.
But merging houses at our age is hard, and he is very sensitive to the slightest flinch from me..he also has a lot of stuff, so I feel overwhelmed and overcrowded... And I have a history of being afraid to make men angry ( thanks dad)
So here I am. Focussing on difficult child, wishing for oysters and champagne and stuck in a place of disappointment in the company of some one who is glowering and angry.
Too cold for a run, my usual cure. Maybe a nap, music candles. I'd love to people-avoid, but have a houseful...
I knew he would screw me over but I didn't expect it to be so prompt.mwhat a loud slap in the face. I was hoping my clear eyed decision making going into it would protect me from the backlash of hurt and anger in my heart.. And maybe it has to some extent..but i,will say I am both,mans mortified, and humiliated in front of myself. And..mod course...a little hopeful, too, that he really will go on Thursday... But he won't.
I feel like calling him and saying...stay the heck out of my life until you can come tell me something good. But...oh yeah....he doesn't have a phone, so I can't have that satisfaction!
To further undo me, SO and I are fighting.... I didn't fill in that part of the story, but he is certainly some one's difficult child as well...often wonderfully supportive, but somewhat unstable, prone to things like waking me up at 2 am to tell me he thought we should split up...he filed bankruptcy a year ago and is trying to get his life together..right now his house is being foreclosed on jan 10) and he is moving in with me, and I committed to support him through May while he works out a new business venture.
But merging houses at our age is hard, and he is very sensitive to the slightest flinch from me..he also has a lot of stuff, so I feel overwhelmed and overcrowded... And I have a history of being afraid to make men angry ( thanks dad)
So here I am. Focussing on difficult child, wishing for oysters and champagne and stuck in a place of disappointment in the company of some one who is glowering and angry.
Too cold for a run, my usual cure. Maybe a nap, music candles. I'd love to people-avoid, but have a houseful...