difficult child had his first appointment with psychiatrist since his release from hospital, I took all this information with me, had all these questions ready, and yet when we started talking about Residential Treatment Facility (RTF), the questions and all flew right out of my head. She did increase his dose of lithium to the 300mg in the am and 600mg in the pm, changed him from the Trazodone back to Remeron for his sleep once again and gave me a prescription for Zyprexa for times when he's extremely agitated and can't/won't calm down. Other than that, we found out she will transcribe her evaluation for him tonight and then it has a 10 day turnaround to be submitted to insurance company for Residential Treatment Facility (RTF). We told her how extremely important it will be for her to make sure she puts down how many times he's been in psychiatric hospital, the severity it has become and all that, we don't want the insurance company to turn it down. We also know that it's the insurance company that has to find a place for difficult child that can deal with all the *problems* (the deafness, diabetes, etc.). psychiatrist recommended a place in Florida, they can deal with every aspect of him. We found a place in Ohio, but they're not sure about the diabetes, depending on the level of care he would need. I just don't know what to do. Florida is so far away, how would we visit? How would he get there? All these questions again and don't know whom to ask. Since difficult child has been home, it's been a roller coaster ride. He has his moments. I'm afraid to sleep at night still. Everything that happened that day still plays over and over in my head. psychiatrist asked about a safety plan. Our safety plan is to call 911 if he can't be redirected, calmed down, it's always been the plan. I just hope we don't have to do that. I just hope we can keep him under control till he goes to Residential Treatment Facility (RTF). I wish everyone well.