Because I feel like you are all part of my family. I can't keep anything from you all. Well, more sadness in the Totoro household. Blech. Clemmey is leaving tomorrow. husband and I have gone over every possible option for us and her. What is fair, taken the human element out of the equation. Taken our own selfishness out of it. Clemmey is a water dog, we are moving to the hottest place in the country. She has a double oily coat. She is a field dog, there are no fields. (cactus and rattlers) She wants to be with us, she can not be in the car in Tucson, too hot. She needs space, Retrievers are very territorial and BARK, we could only find a place with a small yard. She needs to track... we work with her every day, whether in the water or in a field. The southwest and in particular Tucson is rated as one of the hardest places for pets to live and adjust to. The big reason is K She has become very violent to Clemmey. Kicking, hitting, choking, grabbing her muzzle and squeezing hard. It is getting worse. I can not and will not let a 9 month old puppy live in this environment. It is not fair. So when I say, we had to take out the human element, that is our hearts. We have a great friend who works on the water and he and his wife and daughter live on a lot of land. They are looking for a protective dog. Their 12 YO pit/boxer mix just passed. Their daughter is 9yo and wants a dog to sleep with, Clemmey will happily do this. The wife was a vet tech and now stays at home. She will work with Clemmey's hips. She worked at the Vet we go to. So while this is just so wrong, in my heart, I feel horrible. I feel all of the things that a bad parent feels. But part of me, a huge part knows this is what Clemmey needs. We have told the girls that she is going to puppy camp. She went there when we had to go to Tucson last time. So we told them that Clemmey needs to be around other puppies and she needs to stay near the water with her friends. K was just like, oh this makes sense. N understands. But I think she will be hurt for awhile. I think we will maybe get another dog one day for N. A small one that is short haired. Maybe when K is more stable. Or understands that she is hurting something, and can stop and control herself. But for now for a long time we will just mourn... and feel horrible.