After more than 3 months clean, outpatient drug treatment, medication compliance and a job... a slip into relapse followed by a fast moving spiral. My kind, funny and charming son has been replaced with a desperate liar once again. I'm not looking for advice but there's nobody in my "real" world who can understand the darkness of watching a child throw everything away... again. I won't sleep tonight but I've schedule a spa massage and shopping trip for tomorrow. It won't ease my disappointment or erase my worry but it will remind me that I can still live my life. My thoughts are with you all tonight. Take care of yourselves.