My difficult child is 13 years old. I don't like her, I cannot summon up feelings for her at this point. I am sure they are there, I hope they are there. If someone said that I couldn't see her I'de probably be upset, see it shouldn't be probably. I should definately be upset. She can be so mean and ruin everything, She is only nice when she wants something, and then once she gets it, back to same stuff. I put this in the watercooler because it's more about me. My parents and siblings disowned me 20 years ago and I have not had contact with them. I have tried several times, but it really doesn't hurt or bother me that I don't see them. I don't miss them and have not cried because I don't see them. Do I have an attachment disorder? I like to be by myself a lot, I frequently will quit calling a friend for no reason, and then pick up the phone and say hey, what's been going on for like the last two years. My friends all know this about me and they know they might see me or hear from me real soon, or not for a very long time. But I am wondering what's up with me. Maybe it's depression, I just don't know, I medicated pretty well for that. Is this the Bi-polar? I am not depressed about anything else. I feel fine other than I feel like I could get by just fine without being around certain people. I can't and don't want to feel about my 13 year old this way. I don't want to be estranged from her but yet, I cannot stand to be around her either. I just can't take her abuse, and that seems to be the only thing that I am sure is going to happen when she is home. Her attitude, cursing, her mouth my goodness, it's terrible. She's so rude and cuts you off of everything you say. I wish I felt differently. Now my easy child is reading me all kinds of Bible Scriptures to try and help me. It's just making me mad. I am either not open to that right now and I want to take her to college today. I take her to college on the 3rd and I will be hating that I wrote that/thought that when I have to say goodbye to her on Friday. Ugh, is anyone else like this or am do I need to take a look at my medicines or am I just beyond all hope.