just once i want a crisis that my body doesn't make worse. just one time in my life. this isn't it, i guess. In the last six months i have problems with my eyes not always wanting to focus. i wake up or blink and they just suddenly are blurry. eyedrops don't help. it was gone for close to a month so I thought it was allergies, but it is back with a vengeance. from my teens i also have had periodic dizziness. mostly muscle relaxers stop it because the only reason anyone can find is that the muscle spasm and cut off blood flow to my brain - they did find this on tests after a chiro told them to test for it, after almost a decade of fighting it. mr's don't make me dizzy after so many decades on them. so this week I am back to suddenly being dizzy enough that i suddenly cannot sit or stand up. it isn't blood pressure too high or low and I have no idea what it is. our walmart is a great box source if you go between 1 and 4. husband can't stay awake and I can't stand up. i fully intended to go tonight but i literally cannot stand up. i thought I had it gone, and had almost talked myself into going, but if i mess up our one car or myself, well, then we are even more truly in a wreck of a bind. thanks for letting me vent. this is NOT what i need from my body right now. i have a lot of the planning done. we have friends that will let us stay in their house for a while - they bought a new one and listed this one just before the bubble burst and 2 mortgages are killing them. but we have to get there. i just don't know if i can handle my body doing this to me standing up shouldn't be a luxury, Know what I mean??