Ok, Somewhere, Cedar, California,Insane, Wiped, Pasajes,Lil ,Jabber, HMB, runaway, Apple, EVERYONE!!!!!!!!( Id be naming the entire forum which would take up the whole thread and some, so Ill stop naming here, no one else feel left out your ALL included, incl new members) Im reading and will respond tonight to more threads, but wanted to say something...You all have lived it or similar, you all have had various issues health or mental health, financial, bad luck etc. Even if our situations aren't the same or even similar, your still going through life. No matter what you all are going through you all stop by to check on everyone else here and people who are "in person" in your lives. Just wanted to say thank you!!!!!!!! You know how my life can be in circles, and it is changing Im learning but will still not accept 100% is "that no matter what we do, someone wont like it, basically not like me." We can do it their way, they wont like it still. They say they made no mistakes or wouldnt haven't made certain choices like we may have,maybe so. But we are all human and those who make us feel like poo no matter what we do we will never win. We need to live our lives and get away from them. ( eh hum.. I wonder where did I hear this from) ....Even if it is us making some mistakes, maybe we wont know that until we are away from them, or away from the issues. Maybe we just need a break. ( I know haha) Memories stick with us to, we need to keep busy, happy busy! I heard all this .. DRUM ROLL PLEASE!!!!!!!..from YOU ALL!!!!!!!!! Harder to follow our own advice always easier to give, at least for me! Maybe, we arent strong or great like "them" like "they" are, but thats just in certain areas! Because in other areas we ARE STRONGER then them in our own areas! We may not see it and issues pop up, memories, comments, but its because WE have hearts, WE want hurt no one, so we take it. ( again.... eh hum..I wonder where I heard this from) Stress is not our friend in anyway, but we have to figure out how to push most of it away - somehow. I still have my off days, I still am trying to figure out what is going on with some things about me but ones thing is for sure, some of me I left in the past, I want that me back! I gained new radars and knowledge and will use them in my future. I know not being everyones puppet pisses people off, but even when I was I still didnt do it right either!!! They will still knock me even If I got successful, ( billionaire discovered cures) kids straighten up and are presidents.., I look like a hot model and do everything like them, perfection. So why worry? I will because thats me, I will always feel guilty for maybe ( or definitely) hurting someones feelings and disappointing them. Esp my kiddos. Thats just who I am even before all the guilt trips. But I am not blinded by the fact people have issues and unlike some, I do not throw them under the bus. We are all wonderful for this! We have one life, lets keep trying to be happy and not let them win!!!!!! Not let the memories or past win, just lets go, when its my last day on earth( hopefully not for a long time!!) then Ill apologize for everything and everyone again but until then, only when I know beyond a doubt will I apologize once!! Same with you all! Have a great weekend and if anyone is going to bbq, eat some for me please!!!!!!!!!!