sitting here sobbing as I have been all night. stomach firing up too. last night, boyfriend told me he wants to take a break from seeing one another. we have been inseperable for three yrs. although one month ago we had the issue of him seeing a woman for coffee..he said it is not about another woman. he said while he loves me and I have been so good to him, he is not "in love" with me. sigh. he said he needs time alone to think it over and he is sure of this. he is pretty sure it will be permanent. he also said he doesnt want to have a family and be around kaleb and ant. he only wants ant to work for him and not see him other than that. so this means no ride to and from work as well. boyfriend's jobs are an hour from here. for next week only he will meet us half way and bring ant back to the half way point. (we have been staying at his house alone 4 dys a week and mine the other three, but it is an hour from mine and so ant sleeps where we do. boyfriend said the nail in the coffin was ant acting out last monday. ) to top it off, my sis has her bipolar way out of whack again... and cannot babysit kaleb anymore. I do have a sitter lined up for next week only. I have to work and cannot take time off. kaleb's mother is still in texas. I offered to only be with boyfriend and not have him ever see kaleb and ant only for work, but he said he wants to be alone. I am so incredibly saddened. Please pray for strength and peace. I have no one to share with, and feel so very alone.