I am excited for her to go and scared that I am not crying and having more emotion. Scared it's going to come all at once. Everyone has expected me to be a basketcase and I am just not. I am so pleased with who she is and where she is going in life that I am just so happy. I am so totaly sure that I am going to have bad days and good days, and that a lot of the emotions haven't come yet. But I am blessed. Maybe I am pretty well medicated. Don't know yet, but right now I am not feeling sad. I am happy that she is going to have this awesome experience that I was unable to have and become so smart, and have such fun. Tomorrow when I l leave without her it will probably hit me. Pray for me, whatever it is that you wonderful people do that will help get me thru tomorrow, and also court today about difficult child. She's not coming home but still have to go to court. Ugh, what a day today.