or it's time to get a life & make some kind of decision here. kt & wm are both very reactive to their visits together - the aftermath is becoming too much to handle; here & at group home. We are backing down on those for the time being. Close to home, kt has been an outrageous, smart mouthed, & vile child. In home therapist has witnessed this acting out toward me. The sad part is that I'm tolerating it of late. Physically & emotionally, I really just don't have the energy to deal with it - so I don't. I don't demand respect or apologies out of kt; I just walk away. It deflates kt so she moves to a higher level. As an "out of control" child flounders because the adult(s) in her life cannot control her, she will take control anyway she can. That's what's been happening with kt. As the primary caretaker & kt's "mom" - the center of her family universe - all of this is directed at me. I cannot/will not engage in power struggles I cannot win. psychiatrist has been pushing for out of home placement for kt until I'm in a better place, physically, to handle her. I'm holding off on that option because treatment is coming up & I may need that option for the upcoming treatment as it promises to be physically taxing. psychiatrist continues to push for out of home placement - the same type that wm is in - to allow me to coparent kt there. psychiatrist does not want kt to end up back in Residential Treatment Center (RTC). What's interesting is that kt, for the first time, is sitting on her antics until she is alone with me. She's no dummy - she's using my illness. I always thought kt was the twin with a bit of empathy & caring in her. therapist's disagree with psychiatrist & the decision process begins. After 2 weeks of consideration the only thing I've decided is that not deciding is also a decision. There are days I really hate GFGdom.