That is my question. My boyfriend, whom I've known for two years but only been dating for seven months, has no idea I'm bipolar. I am in no hurry to tell him. He knows about my son's autism and my daughter's bipolar, but I've been keeping my own issues in the dark. He knows I'm on medications. He thinks I have anxiety and insomnia. That is why he thinks I am taking the pills. He's not on board with me at all when it comes to my medications. He doesn't believe in them. Whenever he's in pain he won't even take an Advil or Tylenol. He thinks all medications have the potential for drug dependency and he thinks they should only be taken in an emergency. Basically he has chronic pain and he lets himself suffer because he refuses to medicate. He thinks I should do the same thing. He thinks my "insomnia" is all in my head and I need to just learn to shut my brain off at night and relax. Same with my anxiety. He thinks I should just breath deeply, try and relax, and forget about all my problems and it will all go away. He has no idea. Anxiety is just a small part of my issues. He has no idea about the mania or the depression. He is clueless when it comes to my manic episodes and when I stay awake for days on end. He doesn't know about the irritabiltiy, the rage, the overtly sexualized behavior. He would freak if he ever found out. He doesn't know that when I get in a mixed manic state I get suicidal. I have scars on my wrists from where I've sliced them open, but he has never noticed them before. I am afraid to even say the word bipolar around him. So many people freak out when they hear that word. I'm just tired of hiding everything and I'm tired of our never ending talks over how I really don't need to be on any medications. If he knew all of my little secrets, he would probably change his mind about the medications. I just don't know if I'm ready to tell him. I don't want to lose him. I'm deeply afraid he will get scared off and run. Bad enough I have two difficult children, but me? He doesn't know the half of it and I'm not sure if I should let him in on it just yet. What do you all think?