We are just home from family weekend at our son's rehab. He's been there around 50 days or so now? It has been quite a ride with up and downs along the way. Of course we were hopeful that he is getting everything he needs out of this stay and will be one of the lucky ones to never go back into the addiction lifestyle. Tonight, I realize that isn't likely going to happen. Sure, he will verbalize plans for living a sober lifestyle and pray to his higher power and talk about 12 steps till he's blue in the face. Yet its clear now, he's still gonna do what he wants to do. We got a peek into difficult child's frame of mind and way of thinking, the exact thinking that eventually landed him there in the first place! He hasn't changed. We are coming to the end of his stay there, time is short. My heart is heavy.