It's been awhile since I posted. Nothing much new here, other than difficult child turning 18 on New Year's Eve. Now that she is officially an adult, she has chosen to stop seeing her dad every other weekend. Makes it not so nice now, since given her terrible attitude most of the time, I really need the break once in awhile. But it is what it is. She is still not going to school much, so she will be definitely be doing another year of high school next year. With her lack of credits, it's estimated that she won't be graduating until June of 2017. I have gotten over it and have come to terms with it for the most part. As for me, I am still incredibly sick over my job. My anxiety is ten times worse now since my new boss started working here in September. My supervisor started off giving me two lists of names to call. One in the morning, and one in the afternoon. For some reason, starting last week, she is now giving me four lists to call. Now I'm on the phone pretty much all day at my job (One of the reasons why I can't post much anymore. We have no computer at home.) Anyway, I am still desperate to find another job. There was a job opening in my district at an elementary school last month that I applied for. I was all excited, very hopeful, and prayed I would get the job. Well guess what? This year they have added more testing. When I first applied to the job I had now, we had to take a written English and Math test, plus a typing test. I passed all effortlessly. This year they have suddenly added a computer skills test. I blindly went to the district office last month, expecting to take a written test, when they sat us down (There were others testing for the same job) in front of a laptop and told us we were going to be taking a computer test. We were specifically tested on Excel, Outlook, Powerpoint, and Word. I know absolutely NOTHING about computers, other than knowing how to type up a Word document and save it. I did horribly on the test. IT wasn't a multiple choice test. They actually gave us 96 tasks to perform on the computer. Out of 96 questions, I only got 6 right, and I guessed at those! I am so upset over this new requirement. What they tested us on was stuff that we barely even use in the school system! Word going around the district is they made this new computer skills test so hard that barely anybody would be able to pass it. Right now school jobs are in high demand, and there are usually around 200 applicants per job opening. It's been said that the district wants to reduce the amount of applicants, so they made this test so hard that it would rule out a lot of people applying. I have never felt so stuck in all my life. My mental health can't handle 24/7 calling. I can no longer enjoy my weekends or holidays because I am obsessed about having to go back to work and make all those phone calls. I am so desperate for a way out of here, I am seriously considering applying for non school positions outside of the district. That would mean giving up some MAJOR vacation time plus my early retirement. As of now, if I stay with the district I can retire at the age of 50. If I go to a regular job, I will be retiring around the age of 65 like most people. I really don't know what I should do. I love all the vacation I get, and I really want to retire as early as possible, but I can't be in a job that even my psychiatrist says is bad for my mental health. Good thoughts and prayers needed. I hope you all have been well.