Did I mention that this is just a vent? We are only halfway thru the 2nd day of summer vacation and N has been a complete disaster. I kinda expected it, but that does not make it easier. I just feel sad for my baby, that her behavior leads her to lose out on fun she could be having. Yesterday my sisters and their kids came over for a "first day of summer" party- nothing elaborate- just swimming, snacks, etc. But must have been just too much for N- fighting with J, with me, with the littlest cousins (ages 3 and 4), lying to me, mouthy to me and the older cousin (age 15), and finally kicking J, at which point I told N that she had to go lay down. ( I had given her fair warning that "if she didn't/couldn't be nice, her brain must need rest"). Poor thing missed out on a good portion of the afternoon. Granted, life was calmer for us and she felt much better after, but still... Then this morning, it starts again. ODD in action from word one, works her way up to multiple sentences as consequences, angry at me for her consequences despite my reminding numerous times where she was heading, missing out on fun at the park with J and one cousin since she had to write sentences---AAAARRRRRGGGGHHHH!!! I want this to be a fun, relaxing and renewing break for us, but right now, I just want to send her back to... I don't know, ANYWHERE. And to make it worse, I really want to homeschool, but I just don't know if that is even an option for us with the ODD that is so strong toward me. I see progress from her and we do have some really good days, but when she gets like this, it just gets me down so much. Oh and right now, husband is working out of town during the week, so he is only home on the weekends. I don't have his help (and he does help a lot and is really good with the girls) and this also throws N off. I know that her behavior is due to all the changes right now-at least I hope that is it- but it doesn't change that it is so stressful and disruptive to us. I think too that it is harder when she does well for a while (as in a few days) because then I get my hopes up that something we are doing is working and then BAM! She's baaaaaack! Anyhow thanks for listening and letting me vent. I hope that this afternoon will be better and we can have some fun.