I am sitting here listening to my seven year old son scream at the top of his lungs because I have had it and put him to bed early! His father has mental disorders that at 40 have remained untreated but I had no idea how much till I had his son. I have had to go to court over and over just to get him diagnosed and to make him give him is medication. He was diagnosed with ADHD in kindergarten and Aspergers Syndrome and Childhood anxiety this summer. We have tried Concerta, Zoloft, Ablilify at night and now he is on Vyvanse 40mg. I am so tired! My life has been such a mess since he went to school. The teachers cant control him and the kids dont like him. He poops in his pants all the time but that seems to be getting better on most days. His dad is a violent man. He has been convicted of domestic violence toward me. My son has seen this behavior. His dad has such anger issue I hate for him to even visit on the weekends. I fight and fight for custody all the time cause he wants to get child support from me because I am a nurse and have a job. I am so depressed! I love my son but I dont feel like we have bonded at all! I am so tired of going out everywhere and he shows out so bad! He is an emotional wreck! Even the small things set him off. People look at you like they have never seen a kid miss behave! Sometimes I feel like just taking him to his dad and saying "here live your life like this!" He gets to run around with every tramp in the city. He parties and does everything he wants while I am stuck in this life! This medication is not working! I am so frustrated! I feel like the worst mom ever. I am scared my son will end up in a hospital somewhere cause he really gets out of control. He hits himself like his dad and punches and kicks. He has even bitten the wood on his bed will his teeth are chipped! I dont know what to do. His counselor, psychiatric doctor and pediatircian dont seem to know what to do with him. I dont understand why my child cannot be giving something to help him calm down and be more normal? I am so tired. I got remarried in September. I am affraid my husband is gonna get tired of all this drama and just go. I dont blame him he can excape. I am stuck!! I was so glad to hear I am not the only one going through this, but I am at the end of my rope. I want to just take him to his dad and be done with it, but I love him and I know giving his date will seal his fate to being a big nothing like him! Any suggestions? I am open to any and all!