Hi everyone I miss all of you by the way. I hate that I cannot find the time lately to get in here as I used to. So, we have lived where we are for two years now, it's small, cramped and uncomfortable and slowly breaking down around us as of late. So, the other night we went to go see a house, a house rental. We have decided buying isn't in the cards for us, which is fine. It's just too much money for a down payment and the business is just making it now suddenly with the economy, etc. Anyhow, going to therapy for us has been beneficial already, sooo much came out. Ok so i totally found out i've been messing up too a bit. lol imagine that?? This relationship stuff is ALOT of work!! sheesh. i gotta say it was easier being single. alright sorry i got off topic. The house is 3 bedrooms, a den, a living room and an actual dining room, huge backyard, basement with laundry yes laundry to wash my clothes no more laundromat!! It's really beautiful, it's an older home so it has the original modling that I love and character. So, it looks like we're taking it. I'm excited, I told easy child on the side yet not difficult child till it's a done deal and keys in hand. My kids have never lived like that, i've spent majority of my motherhood single so this will be a huge thing for my girls. A backyard for difficult child to play in, the trampoline she always wanted, and the place is really nice. We can actually have ppl over, and do holidays and everything now. There's even a fireplace in the living room it's soo pretty. so, boyfriend's trying to get the money together for deposit and stuff it's pretty expensive this place monthly plus water gas oil all the stuff a house would entail. We called today and said we were taking it, yet umm he's got a day or so to scramble the money together. i'm such a realist these days i told him i'll believe it when i go there and have keys in my hand. lol. so, me working is helping obviously financially. my entire check will go into bank for bills and house. if this really does happen difficult child and easy child are going to be so very happy. i know i sound silly yet with the way life's been i believe it when it's a done deal. i think it'll be good for all of us, it's not like i'll miss my new check i'm not even used to getting it lol.