Hi all.... well it is a lonely weekend in a way because my husband is out of town. The good news he is seeing our son so at least I am getting a first hand report. My son seems to be doing ok although he is having a lot of trouble finding a job. He has been called back a couple of times and thinks then they check his record and find out he was convicted of a felony. That made me feel so sad and so bad for him, although I don't feel guilty because he got himself into that spot. Then I went to the HS play tonight which my daughter is in. It was a wonderful show. One of the lead boys I knew as a child and he was a real handful. On the one hand I am glad he has become such a talented young man and yet it made me feel so so sad that my son could not turn things around and went down the path he did. I realize that in a way I am just wishing my son was different, because he never would have ended up a lead in a HS show... that was never ever his thing. But I just feel so sad for him right now and the path he has taken, and I am worried that he won't be able to get a job. That is what he needs more than anything! My husband is down there and giving him some really good suggestions which my son is following up on so hopefully that will lead somewhere. It just feels sad though to me that at this point I am just glad my son is currently sober.... like where are those expectations we have of our regular normal kids. I just hate feeling this great big lump of regret for him..... yet he has to find his own road, no matter how rocky and hilly it might be. Yet it hurts my momma heart that he has made life so difficult for himself. How do the rest of you deal with these feelings?