You'd think after all this time I'd have a clue about how my kid's mind works. I'm so aggravated and irritated with him right now, I don't think I'll be sleeping tonight. Too bad for him - he finally showed up to discuss the groundrules for him returning to live here at home. Discussion is in the morning and I'm going to be a tired witch. Logical consequences bite. I'm asleep for less than 15 minutes and am woken up by a draft. Wee didn't close the back door very well so it's blown open. I get up, close it, and realize that thank you is sitting on my couch, in *my* house, smoking. O-M-G!!!!Guess I should be glad it was only tobacco. But - we cannot have been clearer. NO SMOKING IN THE HOUSE. Period. We haven't even *gotten* to the tougher rules (no drugs, get a job, get insurance) and he's already breaking the rules. Honestly - I'm just so tired of him testing every doggone limit, no matter how simple. I'm tired of having to bend over backwards, of trying to prove our love for him (because the rest of the treatment team feels he's insecure of it).... only to have him just trample over everything. His borderline traits are becoming even more impossible to deal with. I really want to just tell him to get a doggone grip and get on with his life. Stop the drugs, stop messing around with school because he's *never* going to graduate because he's *never* going to show up, and just get on with it already. So I'm going to be sitting here playing solitaire for the rest of the night to make sure he doesn't burn the place down. Sheesh ..... how hard is it to follow a simple rule? This is so not going to work - I'm too old and tired and cranky to have to supervise my soon to be adult son 24/7. I almost feel blackmailed in a way - he upped the drug use until husband and I were backed into a corner - we feel we have to try to do something to stop it and the only thing left is home. Honestly, I have to wonder if thank you isn't smart enough to have figured that out.... I wouldn't put it past him. Oh man, I am just so tired of it all. Sigh...... sorry. This just really is so old.